lost between truths...

i can still watch the glimmers of white spots dancing in the black,
the black room in where i hide myself,
i can still smell the scent of you in my dream,
in where i have always wanted to share with you,
and i can still hear you from your sleeping,
which i have always wanted to wake you up,
and tell you that he has always wanted to tell you that he loves you,
i'm not saying that i dont love you,
i'm trying to prove that there are some better guys for you,
i'm not worth it for you, my dear
life sucks love sucks her hands sucks
all these fucking nonsenses making me mad
making me fucking want to drive in the midnight and crash into the river while no one knows!
don't worry...im just lost between truths...

part 7

don't kill yourself silently but gracefully
don't blame all on yourself but the others
don't chop your heart into two but into pieces
don't fill your lungs with air but water
don't drown yourself in the river but in your living room
don't commit that but this
this that makes you feel fucked up
so fuck up your life...
god's love kills....